ON THE DEATH OF HEATH LEDGER AND ODing:
I was terrified when Heath Ledger OD'd. I've OD'd like that twice in my life. I've also woken up with my arms and legs straight up in the air in a fetal position like you were in your mother's womb. Your body gets like that from depressed breathing. You're not getting enough oxygen from the opiates. I've woken up with my mouth and fingertips blue. But luckily I've woken up. Why me? Why did I wake up? Why didn't Heath wake up? My only answer is that I've been an addict for so many years that my tolerance is very high.
ON GIVING UP SEX FOR DRUGS:
The show will tell that side of my story in the coming weeks. I'm not really supposed to talk about that yet. But I'll answer your question. Yes, anything went when it came to getting drugs. And yes, I lost a lot of respect for myself and did things that I never thought I would do. I just can't believe it's me. I have an easier time talking about the drug addiction then I do about the sex stuff and I don't know why. I admire Maureen for coming out about the sex side of her story. People were actually calling her “Hoover” after the vacuum. How embarrassing! This beautiful woman with this gorgeous sweet face was being called Hoover. How degrading. I admire her for coming out and talking about it.
ON GETTING FIRED FROM HER MODELING AGENCY:
Well I just got released by my modeling agency (Smith refused to name the agency) after they found out I was on the show. I couldn't believe it. Here I am trying to get help. It's not like I'm out there screaming how much I love drugs and that I'm a big addict. What I did is very hard to do and you would think they would be a lot more supportive. But they ended up releasing me. I got a “You're released” text on my cell phone while I was in rehab. But if I have to throw myself under the bus to get people to wake up about drugs, so be it.
ON HER SPIN OFF VH1 SERIES:
I'm not supposed to talk about but I'll be on a new show on VH1 called “Sober House.” It's all about sober living and how to adjust to the real world after rehab.
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and I would like you to know it can be done!
I floated around the Atlanta area gtting my coke with my own money, then as the money wore thin and Istayed in the drug hoses, cleaning hose, cooking and running errands in my nice car, I sold things that were my own, I stoled things to sell, and I thought I was above all the other girls that hung around and traded their bodies for the drug of their choice, because I wouldn't let anyone touch me. Finally someone taught me a cruel lesson. Upon leaving the place, I got attacked from behind dragged in and brutally beaten and raped for 5 hrs, mouth and hands bound with duct tape. I really was no better than anyone else. I should not have been there. I escaped and hemmoraged for 7 days, but I survived.
I went to rehab on the beaches of Miami, and relapsed once, but that one time was enough to scare me back into being clean and I have stayed clean ever since. It's not worth it Amber, it's a viciou demon that will run you in a vicious cycle and rip you of your money and rob you right down down to your spirituality! Miss Smith,
I wish you the best of everything, I sure feel the difference! I am now he group leade in mdjunction under the assumed name of Frenchie. I counsel in the Addictons Recovery pages. You may email me if you like, I saw yur story on the insider and felt a pang in my heart. Love, Mona
My name is Paul..I've been in your shoes and opiates and benzo"s royally suck when your trying to come sober....You MUST and I stress MUST get on a Suboxone program ASAP!!!!! Please ,don't give up!!!! You have way too much to live for..And stop that selling your body crap!!! I know it's hard...Email me any time,,I've probably been in a worse situation!!!! and I've managed....Contact me!!
I've been on the suboxone program for 2 years now. It has worked great for me in keeping me sober but now it is time for me to come off and I've been having a hard time doing it. Any suggestions?
Thank you!